I’ve been avoiding writing and avoiding people. I am officially 12 weeks pregnant. I also turned 30 this month. This is our third pregnancy, and essentially our fourth child, though we only have Frank to show for it. Pregnancy after loss is much more difficult than I could have ever anticipated. The spectrum of emotions…… Continue reading You can’t pour from an empty cup
My days and nights are filled with prayers for another baby. For a healthy pregnancy. I often think back to myself as the girl who read the positive pregnancy test alone in the bathroom, November 1, 2014. Bright eyed about what I thought would be a “normal” exciting pregnancy. While I now understand every pregnancy…… Continue reading The days before stillbirth.
One of my girlfriends recently shared that her sister had given birth to a stillborn daughter. Naturally she was saddened by losing her niece, but she was even more upset thinking about what her sister was going through. She asked for advice on how to comfort, support, and console her. I decided to just share…… Continue reading Minding the mourning mommy
Regrettably, this is the only picture of my boys side by side outside of my womb. Christopher’s ashes, pictures, poems, rosaries, and half of my heart are in that chest. It is where his physical remains rest in a local cemetery with many loved ones who predeceased him. To watch your child get lowered into the…… Continue reading Create your mourning milestones
I guarantee I’ll receive a big eye roll from my husband for bringing this story up, again. I was incredibly offended by the Stride Rite sales associate who was “helping” me with a purchase for my son. My husband and I disagreed on the color shoe to choose for him (if you’re familiar with toddler…… Continue reading Because SAHMs don’t have incomes.
Happy birthday, my sweet love. You’ve awakened a love in me I didn’t know existed, primitive instincts I didn’t know I had, and a sense of purpose that will drive me for a lifetime. All is right in my world as long as you are happy. You have taught me that being selfless isn’t always a…… Continue reading To my son on his first birthday